Another trip to the ER

Just when you think your in the clear and things are going smooth, reality kicks in and reminds you that bipolar is a full time disease that takes no vacation.
I saw tears in his eyes.  I knew something was very wrong.  He wanted dinner but after his confession of yet another overdose the tears overtook his hunger.  I then learned that he had vomited most of the trazadone he had taken yet we took no chances and went to the ER.  Alcohol always seems to be the one thing that drives him over the edge of that cliff.
As I walked in the front door I felt like a ghost seeing all my past experiences in this place.  I walked by the room where my now passed mother stood with her arm around me as I was crying in fear of losing my husband the last time he overdosed.  Another room I walked by was the time he drank to much tequila, cut up his hand and took to many pills and was being stitched up while I angrily sat there wishing this nightmare would end.  Thank god my brother was there to play my hero that day.  To many memories and none of them warmed my heart except the love my parents gave me when I needed it.  I sure do miss my mother.
Earlier that day, before any of this had happened, he had several phone calls with doctors, bill collectors, ORS and others.  It seemed they all wanted to tell him he was forgetful and crazy.  It was as if they all joined a make David crazy group and made him feel like a freak.
I just want him and everyone suffering from this disease to see how wonderful and unique you really are.  I added a list on here of all kinds of famous amazing human beings that also have bipolar.  I am so proud of David and his talent he possesses.  If any of you have ever met a bipolar you know how gifted they are.  My husband is no exception.  Watching him draw is mesmerizing.  I rarely get to watch because he doesn't like an audience when he is creating.  He is full of life as well.  More so than the rest of us when he is feeling his ups.  Its contagious and so much fun.  I just wish his downs didn't have to be so hard on him.