Encounter with an Angel~ Suicide Attempt~ David's Diary Pages

Years ago, I was facing my third DUI, a massive drug addiction, being an alcoholic.  I felt I couldn’t go on living this way.  I planned my own death.  I will elaborate more on why.  This is the first time I learned I had bipolar but not the first time I attempted suicide.  I didn’t want to live.    I gave my kids all my valuable collectibles, everything that meant anything to me.  I wrote my letters goodbye.  The next thing I remember is, I saw my mother as I was hovering over my lifeless body.  I felt my spirit go through the top of my head.  I remember my mother leaning over my body begging for her sons life.  Please lord!  Please bring him back!  Don’t let him die! Then I saw black.  This part confuses me still to this day.  The next thing I remember is a huge room, like a lunchroom.  I saw a woman with blond hair, the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen, next to my wife.  She came to me in a white dress that was glowing unlike anything I’d ever seen.  I asked if she was an angel.  She didn’t deny it only chuckled.  She asked if I wanted to get help.  I said yes.  She said I needed help and that I needed to clean up and start my life over.   Then I would have a good life.  After this, I passed out again.  The hospital social worker came into my hospital room and I asked him about this woman I saw.  Everyone insisted I had spoke to no one and went to no other room.  My mother and sister were there and asked if I agreed to being locked up and I said I did.    I was in an institution to detoxify for 3 weeks and taken from there to court to be sentenced for my third DUI.  My license was taken away and I was put in jail.  After 60 days I was released and I had volunteered to go to the United Way treatment center for my drug addiction.  I was there for 7 months.  They let me out once and I automatically wanted to use.  I was fighting with my girlfriend.  The only recourse I had was to get locked up again.  

That’s when I decided to change my life live for david paul.  I then opened a store and taught myself how to build furniture and paint.  I had a gallery.  Did all the art shows I could do all without a vehicle.  I was begging for vehicles and help.  I did very well!!  I had opened 2 galleries and my life was complete.  Its amazing how when my life started being more productive and drug free my wife walked into my life!!!!  We only met then, it took many years later for us to get together.